Life Continues

Life continues to be on hold for the most part. I go to work, I come home, maybe play a game, maybe work on some freelance work, sleep, repeat. It's funny because I'm not bitter about what my life is like at the moment, but I'm not happy about it either. I like that I have a job and am getting a paycheck -- and that I'm learning things, but I really don't have anything meaningful happening in my life, so I don't have much to post about here. Sorry about that, but really, if you want to know what I'm doing every day, go re-read the second sentence above. I wish I had more to tell you.

I actively look for work back in Seattle, but things are very sparse at the moment. Only a handful of positions at any of the companies in the area and so far I've had no luck with any of them. I will continue to look, and hopefully sometime in the next few months I'll be able to get back to Seattle, but I don't know when that'll be.

I want to live in my home with my wife. I want to get on with my life. This... existing is fine, there are moments of fun, but really, my life is pretty devoid of any real meaning at the moment. I foresee that being the case until I move home again. As the saying goes, "If you're going through Hell... keep going." This is hardly Hell, but I'll keep going all the same.

I'm so damn cheery lately, aren't I?

A couple things today made me happy. It was my dad's birthday; he turned 71, which I can hardly believe. It's difficult to talk to him on the phone because his hearing is so bad, but we chatted for a bit and that was nice. He wants so very badly to connect with me on a meaningful level, but I don't think he understands that I love him even if we don't have a lot to talk about. He's a good guy and I know how hard he worked and what he gave up to provide for our family. At the time I didn't really understand how hard things were for him and Mom, but now I look back and I have a pretty good idea. He's done good by me and I love him for it. Happy birthday, Dad!

Second, I talked to Julia a couple of times today and yesterday. She's so fun to talk to when she's excited and motivated! The weather in Seattle has been nice enough that she's been able to get out and work in the yard, which she enjoys immensely. It's so fun to hear her talk about her time in the garden and it's amazing how much she's done. The front and backyard really are amazing, especially this time of year when everything is coming up and in bloom. Gardening is her passion and I help out, but really, everything nice about the yard is her doing. I'm just the muscle. Anyway, she was telling me she planted a bunch of seeds in the few open spots left in the yard. Seeds that will hopefully be sprouting in a few weeks and then turning into full-blown flowers by early summer -- including some 12-foot-tall sunflowers! I'm sure we'll be back in the yard next weekend when I'm home.

Third, I found some really good tea and I'm enjoying a cup of it right now.

Let me know if you find a job for me in the Seattle area.

I Wish I Had Something To Say

Things are really boring around here. Jim is back in Missouri with his family and will be until late Monday night. I'm on the new project at work and it's going well enough. The rest of the team is wrapping up a big  milestone, so I'm sort of treading water until that deadline is over, then I'll start to work on new missions and content with them. I'm happy to help out, but it's a bit slow and boring.

Outside of work I've been able to run some errands using Jim's car, which has been nice, but I don't really feel too comfortable overusing it, so I'm pretty conservative with it. Even so, something weird happened with the lock on the driver's side door yesterday, so now it doesn't unlock with the key, which is not good news.

I've played a couple of games of Warmachine with the models I've been painting lately. That's been fun and I'm learning more about the rules and the different factions.

The big project I'm working on for Green Ronin hit a bit of a snag yesterday when I had a short conference call with the people involved. It's not a huge deal, but the deadline that was supposed to be today will now be moved back a bit. Overall that should be fine, but it's still sort of a pain.

And finally, I continue to be bored, bored, bored and feel particularly unfulfilled when I don't have something to keep me busy or someone to spend my time with. It's very difficult to be here and be all alone. I don't like it. Even so, it's better than the soul-crushing work I was doing the past couple of years. At least here I feel like I'm learning something and advancing my career -- even if it is taking a long time.

There. Cheery enough for you?